Monday 20 January 2014
Sunday 19 January 2014
I started
working with drawings after I tried to make collages, some sculptures and
moving images. I realised that only drawings wasn't working for me in a lot of
particular ways and I was going through this sort of quest to understand my own
identity and my artistic identity as a daughter or a friend to the history of
myself. I was so into using sexual and excretory images. I wanted to find out
why I did so. There was a huge flood of information that was living back there
in my mind. In a way the cut parts of bodies was a result of a practice and
also the result of this had me removing something from the whole and then I
have got separated from the whole.
On the basis of ideas prompted
by psychoanalytic thinking, I am on the process of describing the ideas
elaborately considering aspects of methodology and dealing with various
materials. For instance, by using images of partly cut human bodies, I tried to
think of a relation between subject and abject. Separating my self who feels
pathological shame over sexuality from the image that is not cut out allows me
to make an image of resistance against the subject in which in spite of
incomplete images looked uncomfortable, I cut parts of bodies that provoke
sexual arousal to be looked free from taboo. Therefore, spectators in front of
the collage I have done ultimately feel comfortable and acceptable. Strangely
enough, incompleteness of images can associate with perverse sexuality. There
are images of body’s leaking, splitting or decaying as excretory functions.
Such desire related to dirty things could allude to resistant images to
something repressed.
shame
shame
The emergence of shame in the course of analysis and in life occurs in the context of the relation with the analyst or with people. the emergence of the feeling, as it happens with telescoped childhood memories, is the result of extraordinarily complex processes the nature of which cannot be ascertained without considering its genetic, structural, dynamic and transferential components organized as present shameful perceptions of something happening in the analytic moment itself.
Freud discussing the sexual theories of children, says that , once they become aware that the father inserts his penis into the mother, their ignorance of the vagina leads them to believe that /if the baby grows in the mother's body and is then removed from it, this can only happen along the one possible pathway
Before referring to gender difference in the evolution of the sense of shame, it seems important to re-emphasize that the anal organization and the way it develop is strongly influenced by the oral organization that precedes it, and neither the origins of shame nor of disgust can be considered without reference to that earlier phase.
Freud speaks of the role of shame and disgust in the inhibition of sexuality, and thought this took place earlier in little girls than in boys. Whatever the truth of the matter, the cloacal concept of the genitals may, in girls, be anatomically reinforced, may have a strong bearing on the close tie with shame, and has been subject of repeated comments in the literature.
Intensity of shaming parental and social influences, the recognition and awareness of physical and psychological disabilities and insufficiencies and since the body may be said to have started it all - childhood illness felt to be of shaming or disgusting kind.
The emergence of shame in the course of analysis and in life occurs in the context of the relation with the analyst or with people. the emergence of the feeling, as it happens with telescoped childhood memories, is the result of extraordinarily complex processes the nature of which cannot be ascertained without considering its genetic, structural, dynamic and transferential components organized as present shameful perceptions of something happening in the analytic moment itself.
Freud discussing the sexual theories of children, says that , once they become aware that the father inserts his penis into the mother, their ignorance of the vagina leads them to believe that /if the baby grows in the mother's body and is then removed from it, this can only happen along the one possible pathway
Before referring to gender difference in the evolution of the sense of shame, it seems important to re-emphasize that the anal organization and the way it develop is strongly influenced by the oral organization that precedes it, and neither the origins of shame nor of disgust can be considered without reference to that earlier phase.
Freud speaks of the role of shame and disgust in the inhibition of sexuality, and thought this took place earlier in little girls than in boys. Whatever the truth of the matter, the cloacal concept of the genitals may, in girls, be anatomically reinforced, may have a strong bearing on the close tie with shame, and has been subject of repeated comments in the literature.
Intensity of shaming parental and social influences, the recognition and awareness of physical and psychological disabilities and insufficiencies and since the body may be said to have started it all - childhood illness felt to be of shaming or disgusting kind.
Presentation plan (Territories of Practice)
The idea
'exquisite Corpse'
Here is a basic YouTube exams of the idea
We used this same method during the meeting to do the same thing using writing instead of drawing (as we did not want to do a normal presentation.)
Each person took in turn to write a line of thought from their notes (doesn't need to make too much sense but a short thought or a note you wrote). The next person would respond by writing another line in response to that line from their notes. As you can see they connect VERY vaguely and we did it very quickly.
so that it seems quite abstract but when we said it out loud after it sounded like a wonderful abstract poem full of thoughts that tie together in our subject.
Here is the corpse written by people in T.O.P group
Curious objects
resonate like a fetish of this world and another
This could be
reflective of the aesthetics of anxiety
Obsessive
obsessive obsessive , without an obsession.
Triggered by
unpleasurable tension
Alienation to a
field of sequences
Fissuring the
distribution of the sensible
Once the expansion
of veins start, everything starts to deteriorate and fade
Suggestions of the
body, creating an alternative universe of recognisable objects
The fallacy of
considering two things to be the same merely because they have attributes in
common
They cant choose
when to stop, they can never choose when to stop
Monkeys having sex
transported to another world
The animal body crawls
like my instinct
What is going to
happen to me here?
Is here right now
or did I think it?
It is not the
ceiling that usually exists with the aim of transforming it
Time as movement
within a wave
Comets drop as we
fall unconsciously into bloom
Sinking into the
bouquet, it brings me to my 8 year old self.
In the absence of
clear boundaries, bodily traces are inscribed in the spaces that do not exist.
And it seems
obvious that something should be frightening precisely because it is unknown
and unfamiliar
There must be a
necessity to feel labouring.
But where is the
line between the pleasurable and unpleasurable
But where is the
line…..
where is the line…..
The line widens..
a void of repulsion and desire..we slip in
Where is the
line…..
A barrier between
fragile self and shaming intrusiveness
Watch how things
work then they fall apart
Alone, I am
brought back to her body
It entitles me to
heaped teaspoons of dignity and self awareness
Looking at
something, being encouraged to occupy other ideas and thoughts
The drive to
create is often fuelled by a combination of personal and existential issues
A Negative feeling
arising from the experience of human freedom and responsibility
The responsibility
of the visual provokes bewilderment but holds power in the first instance
Hidden bodily
fluids evoke self-abasement
Despising it as
nonsensical and underestimating its importance
This being a
subjective space
Allows becoming
its author rather than its victim
Creating an
inviting place for interaction
The artists
uncanny fantasy is firmly rooted in their generation
And it will permanently
invalidate their process of recovery
This isn’t about
getting back to how you were before
Emotions in 3D
form
The unconscious
space expands in memory
The motive for
remembering lies in handling
Loosening of
boundaries and ego
Contained in taboos
in one hand and in art in the other
Perversion emerges
when the object of the drive moves from the genitals to other parts of the body
Your shame
confirms my existence as thought
The body universe
starts turning and we feel the truth
But we must
remember, lying is a biological need
The body cannot
suppress the gasping breath of unconscious thought
Psychoanalytic Thinking from polly robinson on Vimeo.
This video is put together people's works in relation to psychoanalytic thinking which will be played while we read the corpse in the presentation.
psychoanalytic thinking
Shame, which is a powerful and painful emotion, suddenly occurs in its onset and exerts a powerful influence on behaviours by reaching overwhelming proportion. As considering when shame takes place, shame mainly does in relation to an external referent as well as an internal one.
Yorke(2008) had a doubt if it is ever completely internalized and then adds that ‘There is always an awareness of an observer, a possible observer, a former observer, or fantasized observer.’(yorke 2008 p36). Namely, the fact that I feel ashamed even when alone is related to sensing observers though they are invisible. A feeling that someone may be looking at me leads to fear of exposure that leads to a sense of guilt by being disapproved and condemned. The observer for me is my parent. I even find it difficult to keep eye contact with them after doing something sexual.
The awareness of an observer partly reflects a link between shame, pride, exhibitionism-voyeurism and the defenses against it that underlie the need to hide. This calls for elaboration in developmental terms of oral, urethral, anal and phallic exhibitionism. (Yorke 2008 p36)
In my view, the observers as a measure of forming self-esteem or self-evaluation can be a reason of shame, and the shame is a defensive reaction against being repressed by social derivatives to meet with the idealization in the ego. Yet, extremely underlying education about sexuality rather deprives me of sexually self-indulgent pleasure.
Narcissistic exhibitionism instinctively placed ends up leading to shame because a feeling of physical inferiority derived from penis envy represses the wish. That is, despite this body of mine, a sense of inferiority elicited from envying what I cannot have in superego causes shame when i am shown instinctively or even intentionally. Shame of the narcissistic component can be applied to the situation in that I am not willing to stare at my own genital because it makes me ashamed without any reason. I think that the theory of penis envy seems somewhat useful to understand it.
Bibliography
Yorke,C,B.(2008) A
Psychoanalytic Approach To The Understanding Of Shame In: Pajaczkowska,C. & Ward,I.(2008) Shame And Sexuality: Psychoanalysis And Visual Culture , London:Routledge
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